i wrote this post in my head while listening to the closing song on this post on repeat as i made my way to card & coin. if you input a few simple variables, card & coin is my favorite place on earth. it’s run by a crusty dude who doesn’t give two <redacted> about cards, is only in it for the money, and as i understand it, his best friend has worked there with him for decades. also, best prices in town, right nikki?
anywho, i’m washed and basically soft as charmin these days, and even so, listening to living proof will make me well up at least once a week. in this case it happened both on the way to and on the way home from card & coin. mah baby and i saw the war on drugs in concert recently and i was full on bawling when they played this song. it’s a magical make james cry vibe that they unlocked.
if you received this message directly from me and didn’t stumble upon this by clicking around, i can listen to this song, picture you, and experience the whole of our lives together in 4+ minutes. some have shorter stories than others and the impact is the same nonetheless. if i put myself into the headspace to think about owen while i’m listening, you might as well just bring a mop as you pick up the puddle that used to be me off the floor.
i suppose there’s not much more too it than that. you are loved and appreciated. in summary, i know that things can get better and YOU are that living proof.
here’s the lyrics that tug at me from the center of my being:
banging on a drum
you turn me loose
maybe i’m the living proof
what have i been runnin’… from?
i went down to the corner
they’re building up my block
maybe I’ve been gone too long
i can’t go back
oh, lonesome
i will protect
i’ll keep improving
taking me home
i’m always changing
now i suppose
i’m only moving
i’m in appleton (lol)
come to me now
i know the path
i know it’s changing
i know the pain
the pain you’ve been feeling
i’ve been to the place
that you’ve tried escaping
i can’t recall
what i believe in
i’m always changing
love overflowing
but i’m rising
and I’m damaged
oh, rising
ooh
got me again.
one love,
james
ps…… there’s only a handful of acts that i check for when they drop something new no matter what. i’m sure i’ll find a way to bring beach house into an article down the line and yet, if you like dreamy pop music with a psychedelic tinge to it, check out their new album once twice melody. related: i have no idea how to describe music.
back to the star of the show and another band i’ll check for no matter what. i’ve never seen the official video before and i almost wish i was joking cuz i can’t help but feel it. it’s only been like 3 minutes. lol